I gave myself a well deserved “Kick in the Ass” after my last post and I am now back on course. I thank everyone who responded to my melt down and wanted you to know the photo I posted is my car loaded up for my first exhibition. As a kid I dreamed of being an artist …a successful artist… I imagined all I would have to do is create art and it would sell. I was so wrong this is a full time career and the making of the art ,although I feel the most important , is only the tip of the iceberg. I think I resented the amount of time that has to be dedicated to networking and the other aspects of this career. I learned from my first show that the instillation was an all day process and then ones presence at the show. The art of mingling and actually a bit of acting is involved and all of this is done while not being able to do what we as artist love…making new art. Oh ! We could pay someone to do this but if you have not reached this stage in your endeavors it is best to do it yourself. The show is on till August 27th and then college begins, I will once again be in an environment which is solely creative and I will recharge.
I have had a melt down…everything I thought about the exhibition I entered was true…They only accepted all of my entries because the response was so low. I felt humiliated especially since I made such a big deal about it. I can’t get over the fact that at my age I am so naive. I know that the art world is judgemental and there are hoops that one must jump through to become an artist of any worth but I seriously thought that maybe I was on my way.
I have been patience for so long holding in my mind this desire to be creative and to learn as much as I can about the process but I guess I need to also learn the process of selling myself but this is one area where I need help. College was and still is the best thing that has ever happen to me but when I look at my fellow students I just wonder if I waited to long. They have their whole future to get it right and I am trying to finish mine the way I have always pictured it to be. This blog helps me so much to express myself and know there is someone out there who will read this and maybe give me some helpful advice.
I have entered my first art exhibition. The call for art was in the form of an e-mail and I decided to try and see what happens; I entered eight in the hopes of at least getting one into the exhibition. When the acceptance letter came and I found out all eight where in I of course was elated but then I wondered … and my insecurities(that I thought where under control since starting college) presented themselves in the form of self doubt. Did they accept all eight because the submissions where low? or maybe they just wanted them because I am a student at the university where the festival is being held.
When I started this blog I stated that I would share my good times and bad and now I share my frailities…I do wonder if I am good enough and I don’t expect a response from anyone. I just want everyone to know that it doesn’t matter how old or how young a person is we are all the same and we will from time to time wonder what the hell we are doing.
College has always been a dream of mine and when the opportunity to attend was presented I cautious accepted. I have wanted to be a successful artist since childhood and now with the knowlege I have acquired I can almost see my dream coming to fruition. A dream without a plan is just a wish. Soooo…wish me luck.
Happy Father’s Day to all. I spent all day at work Saturday making 200 strawberries for a wedding. Needless to say I work in a bakery. I always have a camera on me … one never knows where or when the inspiration will come. This photo could be my next painting. I love the textures and the repetition.
Hi to all my followers I have been taking summer courses and have not had the time to post sorry for the nonresponsiveness on my part. I also did something to my blog that doesn’t allow me to be notified of new post so I am trying to figure out what I have done because I truly miss seeing all of your interesting post. If someone knows what I can do to rectify this issue I would appreciate your help. In the mean time I will investigate and see if I can fgure this out. Class is over for me and now while school is out I have time to experiment and develope my artistic skills. I hope to share new work with you soon.
Mixed media artwork evolving from my microscopic series. My mark making is carefree and deliberate, I enjoy the depth and creativity of this piece.